I’ve spent the last month focusing my energy on everything. Constantly trying to be the strongest person I can possibly grow in to. Sometimes I convince myself that I don’t need a companion to not feel alone, but I’m tired of trying to trick myself. It’s all so tiring. I wish I didn’t harbor my happiness in other people. For the first time in my life I feel truly alone. I thought I had felt it before but never like this. I’m sick of people telling me that I’m not lonely, but what they don’t understand is there is a huge difference between being physically lonely and emotionally lonely. It’s hard to find a person who fills that void and it only works when two people fit.
I’ve never been insecure of myself and needed validity from others, I just need someone who I connect with.